- i am a bad driver. i cannot park. i love walking + public transportation.
- i’m socially awkward in the states, but when i’m in korea, all the confidence returns.
- i hate cooking. i don’t want to learn either. eating out in korea is cheap and healthy.
- my friends would never refer to me as korean-american. i’m straight up fob.
- my korean is almost as good as my English, and it really shouldn’t be.
- i hate working for white bosses. i hate working amongst white people. i’d rather work like a slave than make small talk and engage in social networking.
- did i already mention, i hate social networking.
- and speaking of socializing, i cannot socialize with people here. whether it’s church or a gathering, socializing doesn’t work. but the minute i’m in korea, i am a social butterfly. i can lift my face and actually make friends.
- people in korea have no manners. i do not need to say “excuse me” to everyone going in and out of the subway. we just all crash into each other and it’s really not a big deal.
- bargaining is common, and i am the master of bargaining. i find joy in getting good deals.
- haircuts will never cost more than $20 max. facials will never cost more than $30. the best part, no tipping.
- i love teaching korean students. they are already motivated by family. in America, there’s a lack of money + motivation in the education system. parents love blaming everything on the schools. i’m sorry, but as much as i’d like to say i’ll make a difference.. it’s not going to happen. the American education system is f***ed probably forever.
- i am not a minority in korea.
- customer service is spectacular in korea. just a few days ago, i had to tell the bagging lady at costco to not squish my bread loaves with cold orange juice. then she rolled her eyes and i had to ask if i should call for the manager. only then did i get an apology out of her.
- i don’t belong here. that’s probably a good enough reason.
Monday, October 31, 2011
why i am going (needing) back to korea.
Friday, October 28, 2011
Sunday, October 23, 2011
i’m too sleepy to write in detail or coherence, but i wanted to get something down to clearly remember this experience in the future.
For my birthday, God revealed to me how incomprehensibly great his love is and how precious i am to him despite what the world may think. I am so thankful for his love. I am so thankful that my family + close friends are saved—and at the same time ashamed for having taken this for granted.
I do not know why God loves such an insignificant nobody like me, but i do know that his love is greater than anything and i am soooooooooo happy. im too sleepy to write coherently so i go ~
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
my heart does a little plop when i get hired for a position that i’d really enjoy…but can’t accept because of health reasons+long working hours.
God’s really humbling me.
but he is good, and he only wants THE BEST for me.
and that’s all that really should matter. i mean i am currently working part-time jobs that perfectly fit with my current conditions. i am thankful.
thank you God for this time in my life and for taking care of me. =)
Monday, October 10, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
나중에.. 아주 나중에.. 만약 하나님의 뜻이라면..난 어려운 나라들을 여행하면서 학교 짓고 아이들 가르치면서 살고싶다. 그리구 학교안에 교회도 새울수 있다면 얼마나 좋을까.
막 이런생각 드는 틈에서 부모님 반대..미국생활..한국생활.. 등등 걸린다.
내가 여행하는거 좋아하는것. 교육자격증 따게된것. 여길 떠나고 싶은 마음. 뭔가 크게 일 벌리고 싶은 마음. 하나님을 위해서 뭔가 하고싶은것. 다 무슨 의미가 있다고 생각해.
지금은 머리도 복잡하고..뭐 돈도 없으니 어디가서 학교새운다는게 지금 현실적으로 말도 안되고. 또 나 혼자 뭘하겟다고 주변에서 손짓할테고.
지금은 아니다. 기도해야 돼. 답이 나올때까진 주워진 삶 열심히!
Saturday, October 1, 2011
이노래 들으면서 뜨거운 눈물을 얼마나 흘렸는지.
너무나도 나태해져있었던 나.
그래도 그분은 날 받아주신다. 가만히 있어도 저를 부르시는분.
제가 감히 주님을 사랑합니다. 자격없지만, 아무것도 아닌..수십번 죄를 짓는 제가 감히 당신을 사랑합니다.